The Pursuit of Happiness

Hey, how yall doin'? I know I ended my last blog, which i wrote ages ago, with "I'll talk to yall later." And it's a lot later. But i can explain. You see, after my last blog, I had the whole Christmas thing, and I didn't want to go on my computer much. And by the way, Christmas was great. It never fails to be the best time of the year. I love it. It's also funny that, although I loved everything I got, one of my favorite, most surprising gifts was a text book from the CIA (Culinary Institute of America) in my stocking. I literally teared up when I got it. Ok, to get back on track, after Christmas, my power cord to my laptop broke and I just got a new one today, so I'm just now able to blog again. Ok, well life is still as it was, I'm just trying to live with what I got. Celia's doing good. We hit three months tomorrow (Jan. 12) and I'm loving every minute of it. Wrestling still drags on. It's fun, just tiring. Its slightly depressing to think that, of all year, I've only gone home at the bell twice, once to get my license, and once to study for my LA exam, which I owned. Otherwise, I've had a sports-related obligation every day this year. That's an entire semester of staying after. I'm really starting to look forward to March, when I enter my 3 month vacation with only 2 days of loose football workouts a week. Most of the time, the bell's gonna ring, and, having learned to do most of my homework in school, I'm gonna have an entire afternoon free to do what ever it is I want to do. I'm so pumped. But, at the same time, I'm gonna miss the sports. It really is a terribly wonderful paradox. I always have something to look forward to.
However, all of this thinking to the future has me stuck in yet another attempt to define the world. I've been thinking, does it make me greedy or irresponsible to live, at least for now, to enjoy myself. Does it make me a lesser, irresponsible person to live for fun and enjoyment. Even as one ages and must take on the responsibility of others dependent on you for their very survival, aren't you living to enjoy yourself? No, of course not, you say. How could that be figured with all the sacrifices that must be made to provide a wonderful life for others? Well, I'm definitely not in a position to speak from any experience on this subject, but from what I see out of my parents and their actions, I have to figure that, although it is hard and you personally might not be doing what you want to do, don't you enjoy seeing the enjoyment that is brought forth from your sacrifice. I don't want to sound like a freak, but you show me someone who doesn't become happy watching a small child smile, and I'll show you someone who knows no happiness. You need other examples, I got 'em.
If any one of you out there has every practised a sport, you know that practises normally stink. It's no fun to have to go out there and work and review trivial things constantly. But, it has been discovered on many occasions, the feeling and enjoyment in winning that game knowing you've worked hard to get there far outweigh those with no effort tied into it. To be frank, I have decided to live the life I wish to live, I will live my life to the fullest and work to enjoy every minute of it. I feel that that's honestly a common goal among people, just it isn't commonly referred to. Greed and the idea of being characterised as greedy or selfish is a deep fear among people. But really, the idea of living for your own enjoyment isn't greed. As long as you keep the priorities in mind, it can be just the opposite. One just has to keep in mind, at least in my opinion, that helping others better enjoy life brings pleasure to yourself. Helping others always seem to help yourself, and that's probably a driving force behind some of the happiest, most successful people alive. Well, I'm gonna go eat Mexican food, sorry for making this a little long. Thanks to those who read this whole thing and can try to take it as it is. I'm not trying to be an all knowing person, I'm just trying to figure out my life when the world still has a little innocence. Many wise man have noted that the most honest and true observations have come from those the youngest. I'm just trying to help myself in the road ahead and, if i happen to hit on anything worth while, help those reading this. Ok, well now I'm really going, Ill try to post again soon. Until then, just try to enjoy yourself, I feel it'll help out in the end.